The past few days I've felt like a total teenager. I'm releasing so much stuff and it just pours out of me like the emotional equivalent of snot. And it builds - surfaces - leaves. Ad infinitum, it seems. But there's so much to let go of as the new life blooms forth. So much of my personality that's completely redundant, that's only been for protection and preservation. And I don't need it anymore. I'm covered.
I find myself asking for my own forgiveness a lot these days. It's been long overdue. It's taken me so long to let my heart shine through my ego. But honestly I guess it's all about the contrast and now the letting go becomes sweeter... and sweeter ...and sweeter.
"My heart burns in separation of the beloved,
My soul is aflame with a passion for him,
I am so much enveloped in these flaming emotions,
That whoever sees me in this plight
Burns like pinewood that catches fire.
I am not the only one burning in these flames,
The whole world around me is ablaze.
I am burning on the embers of separation,
Just as a chemist burns chemicals on a furnace.
Blessed be thou O heart of Goya,
For being burnt in passionate flames of love."
- Bhai Nand Lal
Sat naam.
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